Treatment by Ed Preston, RScP
“What is the feeling when you’re driving away from people and they recede on the plain till you see their specks dispersing? – it’s the too-huge world vaulting us, and it’s good-by. But we lean forward to the next crazy venture beneath the skies.” ~ Jack Kerouac, On The Road
That was a quote used by Rev Jim Lockhart, Center for Spiritual Living Simi Valley, CA, to begin a memorial message he sent for the service we had for Carol, a member of our Center some time ago, and who was back here with us when she passed away. I had the honor of reading his memory of Carol for our Memorial service.
Both Rev Jim’s memories of Carol and the quote from Jack Kerouac are still with me now, four nights later, and I love them. As Carol fades, it’s really a “too-huge world vaulting us”, but it’s not “good-by”.
I come to my place of peace, where I go each time the “too-huge world vaults” me. I find my peace with Pa, and Ma, and Robert, and Florence, and David and Carol, and with all who have said “good-by” to this too-huge world, but not to me. I did not say “good-by” to them, and they all are still here with me in memory and mind and Spirit. They are still “leaning forward “ with me as I move to my “next crazy venture beneath our sky”. We lean together into the next adventure. It is our adventure together, and I allow myself to become a Devine vehicle by which they can live forever.
My turn will come also to say “good-by” to this “too huge, vaulting” world, to become a speck dispersing. But, I will not say “good-by” to all of you or to all of my friends and loved ones. I know I too will live on in memory and mind and Spirit. I see this for all I know and for all who read this and we are One in our power to just “lean forward to the next crazy adventure” in Mind. We choose together to go on.
So, in reality, I know there is no reality out there. That is only the too huge vaulting world and the sky beyond, under which we find our next crazy venture. We make our own reality by simply “leaning forward”. And so, as we lean together, I realize we lean as One. We are One. We each find our own crazy venture, so we are unique and diverse in our craziness. It is that craziness in which I now rejoice and for which I thank God.
We are all specks dispersing in an Infinite World of Spirit. Yet, we each go on in memory and Mind knowing that we can just continue to lean forward and Be what we want to Be. For that I am so thankful.
So, I release my need to recede or to see others receding, or to disperse and say “good by”. I release these words into the vaulting world of both form and Spirit, knowing that they both simply allow me to just Be. So, I continue to just Be, slightly leaning forward as I just let it all Be.
And so it is. Amen
Treatment for September 9, 2014